On the 25th of September we were together for one year…hiyaaaa!! 😉
With a lot of people who thought this will never survived….
He is 18 years younger than me…but it was Love at first sighed…;-)
No regrets…and I know we are going to have an amazing future together…
Just Love him..with my whole Heart
On Monday night the 13th of January Frans ( my fiance) got severe chest pain,
On Wednesday night the 15th again…then it’s off to the GP.
Some test shown something is wrong with his heart…;-(
The dr sent him for more test…
Monday the 20th he booked in hospital for an Angiogram ( a process that provides your dr with precise information about your heart condition, allow much more individual treatment)
The heart specialist immediately re comment a heart bypass – in Frans case they need to bypass 5 of the 6 arteries to his heart..;-~(
The purpose of the ” bypass” operation is to supply blood to the part of the heart, which does not have an adequate blood supply – quoted from Cardio rehabilition of Wilgers Hospital
(a Heart bypass operation can last anything from 5 hours and more…Frans was in theatre for hours I can’t remember..)
They “harvest” veins from your legs and then use it to replace the “faulty” ones to your heart.
An incision was made in his breastbone in order to attach the grafts, the heart is stopped and placed on a bypass pump..)
He had so many drains in his body…drips that I stopped counting.
This is a very high risk procedure…and people said worth at the end.
In Frans case the main reason for his blocked arteries was SMOKING – also the biggest cause of heart disease.
There are other reasons for this condition as well: Hypertension, high blood cholesterol, Overweight, Lack of exercise and of course
the word stress.
We have a healthy life style…he is fit and very active…yes there is stress..but still not the main reason for his.
He is in his second week of recovery and is on a 8 week recovery program.
I Wish that I can hold you
one more time before you grow.
And tell you that I love you, as I do every day.
so that you will always remember that.
Please let me tie your shoe, put on your warm jacket,
Comb your beautiful long hair, one last time…
And you will remember the love I’ve shown.
Perhaps then just one day you care for me too
When I need that
I wanted desperately to be a part of your life.
In everything you do.
Please let me help you in difficult times
I miss the bedtime stories
The Sunday plays in the park, all the movies we watched together.
And when you become the greatest Scientist or biggest Hollywood actor
There will be no soul more proud than me!
Too quick you grew up, and in my heart I still want you to
Be just my boy!
Love you more than Life itself!
What could you really see when you sit there and stare so long at me?
Today’s mask that’s painted more than perfectly, or what’s truly behind it?
Do you sometimes see the face of my true calmness and peace,
or the torn pieces around my innocent smile,
perhaps the utterly screams behind my expressions?
Maybe it’s the strength that I portray, or the weakness that I hide?
Do you believe that I will show them to any one, or do you know that I hide them all to well?
do you take in my childish innocence,
or the angry demons of my restless soul?
Do you really think I will show you, or do you know that I’ve already ……..?
In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing ,the question:
‘What kind of man are you looking for?’ …
She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking,
‘Do you really want to know?’
Reluctantly, he said, ‘Yes.
She began to expound,
‘ As a woman in this day & age,
I am in a position to ask a man what can you do for me that I can’t do for myself?
I pay my own bills.
I take care of my household without the help of any man… or woman for that matter.
I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’
The man looked at her.
Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.
She quickly corrected his thought & stated,
‘ I am not referring to money.
I need something more.
I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.
He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain.
‘I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I need conversation & mental stimulation.
I don’t need a simple-minded man.
I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked…
believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.
I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don’t need a financial burden.
I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman,
but strong enough to keep me grounded.
I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships.
Lies and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man.
I need a man who is family-oriented.
One who can be the leader, priest and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God.
I need someone whom I can respect…
In order to be submissive, I must respect him.
I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business.
I have no problem being submissive…he just has to be worthy.
And by the way, I am not looking for him…He will find me.
He will recognize himself in me.
He may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to me.
God made woman to be a help-mate for man.
I can’t help a man if he can’t help him self.
When she finished her spill, she looked at him.
He sat there with a puzzled look on his face.
He said, ‘You are asking a lot.
She replied, “I’m worth a lot”.
I got this from a friend today, and says it all!
When things are changing all around us
as they do…
and the world seems to spin out of control…,
I’ll be right beside you…..
So when you look ahead to a new tomorrow,
or waste your time thinking of the past,
Don’t forget to look beside you ….
because that’s where you’ll find me
loving you with all my heart.
I don’t know no other way…..
Will you take my hand and walk with me?
to a far away place where lovers go,
where kisses are like raindrops,
and soothing rivers flow….
Inhale my perfume,which I wear for you only…
of the roses as we near,
each step closer to our paradise,
were rivers flow so quitely.
The sun then will shine much brighter
in our skies…,
the stars that shine at midnight
will shine for You and me….
We’ll walk along the white beaches,
waves crashing all about,
cleansing the uncertainty,
removing all the doubt, that we have…
My words will sound much more true than now…
when I whisper in your ear,
I’ll always be in heaven
as long as you are near….
Don’t think about many the reasons,why?
look beyond them all and look above,
then close your eyes and open your heart for me…
so I could enter…
that special city called love….
you’ll look at me the way you did yesterday,and the day before..
when al my faults were set aside,
and for once, i felt perfect!
my cheeks wont hurt
from the amount of smiles and laughter
you place on my face
and the amount of butterflies you create
in my tummy.
You realise that I love you!….
This was a wedding who sends out a message of Hope….
and Long Lasting Love….
The vows they took will be forever…I believe..
They promised to love each other in good times and bad…
He assured her that
he loves her better than he Loves himself …..
From the glowing embers of your Spirit….
Came a little warmth of your Love..
Together we set it, in a cozy little corner.
Safe from the world…
Then a soothing breath from your lungs…
Helped to ignite the flame…
On the lonely Candle
In the core of my soul….
As time passed day by day..
Conflicts cause great winds to blow..
But you cupped both hands around it..
And it just flickered with a brilliant glow..
They say that nothing is forever…
But I don’t believe that is true..
That little candle in my heart…
Is a Loving peace from You…!
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and your voice caught within your chest?
It isn’t Love, Its Like.
You can’t keep your eyes or hand off of them.
It isn’t Love, Its Lust.
Are you proud and eager to show them off?
It isn’t Love, Its Luck.
Do you want them because you know they’re there?
It Isn’t Love, Its Loneliness.
Are you there because its what everyone wants?
It isn’t Love, Its Loyalty.
Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you dint want to hurt them?
It isn’t Love, Its Pity.
Are you there because they kissed you or held your hand?
It isn’t Love, its being Unconfident.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn’t Love, its Infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn’t Love, Its Friendship.
DO YOU TELL THEM EVERYDAY THEY’RE THE ONLY ONE YOU THINK OF?
IT ISN’T LOVE, ITS A LIE.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn’t Love, Its Charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad?
Then its Love.
Are you attracted to others but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then its Love.
Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are?
Then its Love.
Do you cry for their pain even when they’re strong?
Then its Love.
Do their eyes see your true heart and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then its Love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
Then Its Love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then its Love.
Now, if Love is painful and tortures us so,
why do we love?
why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we live for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Because its Love ……
On The Wings Of Dreams
On the Wings of Dreams
I’m flying free
with a dreamer’s dream,
To a land without fear, darkness, and doubt;
Where shadows and hauntings
of all time and space,
Are rainbows with colors that endlessly grace…
happiness, hope, and all joys to embrace.
A land with no storms, without pouring rains,
where changes abound and great comfort remains;
Where all hate is replaced,
all questions erased;
Where new memories are shaped,
with wonderous light…
of romance and love, before out of sight;
A dreamland of heaven without jaded thought,
where butterflies are free,
their colors uncaught;
With milk oceans to see,
fresh air to breathe;
Countless flowers and trees,
fragrancing the soft whispering breeze.
No more webs of deceit,
where lovers have fought;
No battles of hopelessness,
where all love is lost.
Maybe our dreams hold the land of our thoughts,
Or maybe our hearts have learned lessons well taught.
It is the stairway to heaven,
this dreamland we seek…
Hopefully for all is more than a peek…
at a future end to the ultimate pain,
of great loyalty and love…
lost and estranged.
This dance of life I endlessly write,
Is an end to the pain, and every soul’s light.
To a life fulfilled at the end of our time…
to dream second chances for new love we can find.
Here’s to all of us ending our heavenly climb,
With the company of romance and lovelight sublime.
Ooh how sweet and melodious
Is the language of my friends
soothing to my soul
How tranquilly, how tenderly
The they talk to me
That tell me legends
That sing me verses
I’m adding a song to this blog..
this song is in Afrikaans,
my home language..
Hope u like it…
Because I loved myself, I was loved.